How to gain closure and move on in life

20 months ago, my 7.5 year relationship ended in very bad circumstances. I packed and left whilst he was at work, and refused any contact.


After a few more months I left Hong Kong and spent time overseas in a couple of different countries trying to heal. There were times where I spent weeks closed up in a room refusing to leave. Eventually I started going back to work again, same company but different country.


Now so many months later, I have still been unable to move on. A few times I felt that things were improving, but I would lapse back into a state of depression again. I have tried counselling and therapy with different people, and now have helped. I tried a few types of anti-depressants, and these make me so sleepy I am unable to get through the day and have had to return home from work I have been that sleepy. I can barely talk to people anymore, I just can’t get through a conversation. I take sleeping pills and anti-anxiety pills on the weekends and try and sleep through it. The longer I am awake and thinking the more I think about self-harm.


I know that people go through bad break-ups all the time. But for some reason I cannot seem to cope. I have no-one to turn to as I have shut most people out of my life. How do I get the closure I need and to move on.

Eck, check your PM...