My story--The ashe of butterfly

Before I go to high school,I was a happy boy.my parents and sister love me so mush,and in the middle school I did a good job.But when I came to the high school,a never expected thing came.I meet a boy who was my middle school classmate. Because his home is next to my home,then we went school and home together.As you know the pression is heavy in high school.But during that time ,I almost told everthing to him . When we came into grade2 ,we ate dinners together and played together. As time went by,I suprisely found that the friend between us had changed.I found that I can't leave him ,I knew that I fellin love with him.How terrible! I am a boy and he is a boy too. Maybe my charater like a girl.Even I konw that my love for him is error,but I have fallen deeply,I can't control myself,I am really too weak to forget all this. I know that I must leave him and let him be happy.Then I told him how I felt and thoudht, but to my suprise,he hurt me baddly,I don't know why ,I had the true love and I had decided to leave him,why he still hurt me.Leaving him means that I can't be happy from then on .Leaving him means that I always cry to myself to sleep at night.But he still hurt me .I am not a gay ,I just forget my sex because of love.I believe true love, but she hurt me and made my heart broken.In this world ,money,beauty and power can be changedf for love, but a true hreat can not be changed. Can you tell me why? I am lonely now , I don't know how to walk next.Maybe I was wrong, but I know that love is never wrong.I am the ashe of butterfly and the tears of moonlight shadow.

hi, yes,I believe in true love,too.I think that you didn't do it wrong.Love is just like that.Love can give us anything and it can take everything from us ,too.On the other hand I agree with Nemesis that love is never wrong.But ,yeah, you must learn to be stronger,you know that there will be someone loving you, so you must learn to be happy.

And I am really touched by your story,I think you are not the ashe of butterfly ,you are the wings of butterfly,because you believe true love ,that in this world most people have not believe it.


Good luck and happy year!

I am sorry that ashe is wrong ,it is ashes.Thank you can read my text.But I still love him deeply.I don't know what to do?

Thanks For your advice.But is that wrong I fell in love with him? I can't forget him.He comes to my dreams every night.I am just like a girl>

"This GAY thing"? What the hell does that mean?


Linda (and yes, your handle is confusing - please explain), there's nothing wrong if you are gay. And you're right, just because you loved a boy doesn't mean you are, but don't automatically shout "but I'm not". Perhaps you don't know the reality of your sexuality yet, and you will learn, and hopefully not let society interfere with what are natural feelings.


It's probable that the boy you loved is not gay, however, and does not share the same feelings. If this is the case, you do need to move on.


I suggest you watch a local independent film called "Innocent" (you can get it at HMV). The exact same thing happened to the boy in that film. But he bounced back and moved on with his life, as should you.


Good luck, and please let us know if anything positive comes of this.


And in case you are gay, it is not true that Chinese society does not accept this. In fact the situation for gays is much worse in the US. Hong Kong has a very strong, healthy gay community, though one can admit there's sort of an "as long as it's not your family" approach to the acceptance of homosexuality.


You can get lots more information and help about homosexuality in Hong Kong from Horizons. Horizons offers a counselling service that seems perfect for answering your question, whether you're really gay or not.


http://www.horizons.org.hk/

Thank you for your replies.I know that.But I just love him too deep in the passed six years.Though we are just friend ,but I have loved him .I don't konw why.I just can't forget him.I know my love for him may be wrong.But I don't hate him for he hurt me.I know he must leave me,I will leave him to let him happy.but I still love him in my heart for the rest of my life and I will only love him no matter he has left me and no matter what people say.I know I can't expect that he is with me,but I have the right to love him.I will obey my words.Please understand me,I have no choice but to do this.When you fall in love with somebody,you will know that although he or she may leave you till the day you die but your love for him or her will last forever.To us ,the life is just once,if we can't love the one we realy love,it will be a pity,but if you love the one you love though he or she leave you ,it will not be a pity.My Love is wrong in the view of the society,but I will still keep it as the best thing in my life.you know that in our daily life we may face many difficulties,then we can solve it,but now my problem can't be solved,maybe it is despair.But I never regret loving him.Maybe my life is just a joke made by god .Thank you to reply.I know you will understand me one day.

I am just a boy who is so weak.I cry almost every night.Why my love is just impossible,why?Why I can't love the one I realy love?If the God can make him with me , I am willing to lose everthing i have, I am willing to lose my eyesight , I am willing to be not possible to walk speak and hear,for a change.If God can let we love each other just for one day,I am willing die the next day.why,why, all that is just impossible,impossible?Who can help me?I am almost go to mad.

The problem is not that you loved a boy. The problem is that you are in love with someone who does not love you back. You need to move on and love someone else. It doesn't mean you have to give up your love for him.


I like to say that the capacity of our hearts is infinite. No matter how much you love someone, loving someone else can never displace that love. There is always room for more love.


Maybe you will never love someone else as much as you loved him. But you may be able to love someone else enough to make yourself very happy indeed, whilst holding your love for your first love deep within your heart forever.


I do hope you find that new love and you can be happy.

Look on the bright side!!


For sure you can't feel as bad as the English who just lost their "Ashes" to the amazing Aussie cricket team...

thank you for your understanding.I may just think for myself.But I am just very sad all the time ,my e-mail address is chenliang060455@126.com,you can drop me line .I am very thank you.Happy new year!