Help!trapped in a weird love circulation!

i am a chinese girl in my mid-twentitis,while the weird thing is that 3 out 4 of my relationship is with people from other countires,i don;t why,but it happened.My first boyfriend is a chinese.We just broke up when we graduated from the univeristy.The second one is a half-japanese and half a sweden,who i met from my friend,i really loved him,he is soft and gentle,,too..we really had a great time.One day he told me he had to go back to Japan,which was required by his boss.I had no choice,,i have to let him go.But the thing just changed after he left china.at first we often chat with each other in the webcam..but as the days went by,he seemed to be more and more busy,we did not talk to each other as often as before.and i could not see passion from him at all.It seemed he was just avoiding me.I felt there must be somthing bad happened.Unluckily i was right,he called me one day that he was in love with a japanese girl,and for the long distance between us,he had no confidence for our relationship.I was so frustrated at that time,i loved him so much.The only thing i could do is just giving up.i did not love again until one year after that,i met a German on a website,we enjoyed our chat with much.(he was in guangzhou,i am in wenzhou)we left our phone number to each other.And we almost talked to each other on the phone every night,it was very sweet for me at that time.After about three weeks,he told me he wanted to see me ,and he wanted to come to wenzhou.I could not deny that how happy i was when i heard this,coz i have already had good feelings for him too.after 5 days,we saw each other in the airport,he was totally my type:handsome,tall and act as a gentleman,i showed him around the city,everything was just so wonderful and romantic.For the next couple of days,we went to many great places in wenzhou,and enjoyed many great dinners.though it was only a week we spent time together./It was really beautiful memory for me,i even thought i was in love with him at that moment.May be it's just me expected too much from this "relationship',he was not so into me as i think.When he went back to Gz,he did not call me as often as before.it was usually i called him for talk.several days later,he brought me a really bad news".....i felt really bad these days,there was a rumor in the company,this company may close."(he worked in a German company which has a branch in Guangzhou)Unfortuanately,it turned out to be fact later,he was fired and becoz he was holding a working visa in china,and now he lost his job,so he had to be back in germany.I begged him to stay here,i even searched for many websites which were specially designed for foreginers in china.But it did not work,i said to him"may be you could work as a temparory teacher here first,and then we will firgure something out".he said""i really wanna be with you,but i don;t want to end as a language teacher"He went to Germany one week later.You can imagine that i lost my love again,with a foreginer.Since than.i felt really low,tortured by a feeling of desperation and disappointment.Now,after a long time.When it came to 2009,one day i sat in a typical local restuarant in wenzhou,i was just about to stand up when i found a man coming to me.I was confused,and he begin to introduce himself:"i am a turkish working here,and i don;t know if i have a chance to know you"i planned to refuse,but i looked at his eyes,finding a very sincere thing there.i was touched at that time,we sat down and had a few cups of tea.We left our telephone number to each other after we finshed this.He asked me out the next day,i don't know why,it just seemed that we have known each other for a long time.We went to Jiangbing road,the wind is a little bit strong and also a little bit cold.He begin to touch my icy hands,his hands were very warm at that moment,we looked at each other.And we can't help kissing each other,we had a romantic moment.After spending together for two weeks,he asked me to go to his house,i agreed,when i got there,af first we just watch the moive in the compute,then he began to kiss me ,we lied down on the bed.i realized something would happen,but i am still not so ready for that.He told me"i am an honest person,i have somthing to tell you,i did not want serious relationship at this time,i just spent some wonderful moments,i know myself"God...what is it about.i felt that i am such an idiot for so long a time.I rushed out of his house,and then sent him a message later:"we are quite different ppl,i guess it;s over,take care"...my last romance ended here ,just one week ago.And now i am still suffering for this.I am feeling really terrible right now,should i just stop dating with foreign guys,are they all the persons just want to have fun in China?I really don;t wanna be in this kind weird and short love failure anymore.it's so torturing.I am always trying to be honest and sincere,but also always ended as pathetic one when facing love.Give me advice.should i swear to myself to stop dating foregin guys?

japanese = unlucky

german = more unlucky

turkish = careless of yourself


you're still young and should date whoever you like, chinese or foreigner should not make a difference.


one thing to check though: i would be a bit more careful about foreigners without local friends and/or without too many other friends in china. simply because they might be lonely and looking for some friend/fun while not being too interested in a long-term commitment.

hmm posted twice the same...